FEELING SINGLE AND LIVING SINGLE

I like her saying: “…Life is way too short to live it through greed so on  saying all that we have said you and your wife must live life through life and learn to love each other again and spend more time talking and listening to one another and you will see that life will be so much pleasing to the eyes and smell, touch, and taste….” – Poetess Alfreda Ghee. 

I am taking rest

And in a social web site,

I am trying to get

Some freedom from

Loneliness effortlessly.

Then she comes,

And says, “How are you?”

I only reply,

-“My rivalry is my loneliness.”

-“Have you liked someone?”

She softly says

As if she is in search

Of my deep sense of love.

She says again,

-“Do not worry,

A break gives happiness,

Our inner side wants this.”

In the cloud of my quest,

She says like a sage,

Her words sound nearer,

And I reply,

-“I like someone,

She is absent for days,

She has sent a message

To write a gratitude list.”

-“Good, just put some words

To make her know on,

The power of the earth

The power of the moon

The power of the heart

And send them with a kiss.”

She replies.

-“I can do that,

I am thinking on this,

Myself does not make me

A darling to my wife

I have a son,

Yet I feel loneliness

And I try to seek love

With a woman behind

With longing and whispers,

Open on both sides,

She can share and desire,

And I can tell her everything.

Perhaps I cannot rediscover me.”

I say, and continue,

-“Can I ask a question?

Do you not angry with me?”

-“No, I do not get hurt

Or I do not angry with you,

Tell me dear friend.”

She replies.

-“Do you feel loneliness

On your way as a single woman?”

I say.

-“Yes, I get this feeling,

Many times, and then

I try to feel my two kids,

And when I see them

With my heart as mom

That makes me work hard

All day long, with energy.

I cannot do wrong to me or to them.”

She replies.

-“It is parental duty,

Lonely busy mother,

A fair primal feeling it is.”

I say.

When the earth goes

With the singing of love,

Various colors

Will give her a sentiment

Not to confront

But with bright conformity,  

To perform the duty

Founding stone to adore

The sentiment arose

With muses of emotions.

-“Do your kids help you?”

I say.

-“Yes, the eldest does help.”

-“Do you feel a wider gap

To have a smoothing way

For a male participation

To come on your side?”

I say.

-“Yes, then I get

Philosophic mind,

Through my path right now

God has blessings on me,

And God is with me, and

I think I am better than

The person who has nothing,

As I have minimum necessities.

On the second way,

I am happy considering,

There are persons

Who are happy,

Without having anything

To declare as own assets,

Yet they are enjoying everything,

And their life is beautiful.

I cannot change my world.”

She replies, and continues,

-“I can understand your feeling,

I have felt that before,

And you have to find

Your way, not to feel lonely.

Please open your mind

To your wife and talk

About the way you feel.

You and your wife

Have to live a life

With learning each other,

And you will see

Life is pleasing

To the eyes, smell, touch and taste.

Please open your mind to your wife.”

Before I can say something she logs off computer.