LET ME LIVE ALONE

Let me live alone

I do not take your ordinance

I am very alone

I do feel to live separate from my wife

She is living elsewhere away from here.

I am living now in a mess.

I choose one bed in a dormitory,

I choose to live alone

I do not want to see comfort of my bed ,

Doors, windows, concrete ceiling,

Of my home, it is now like a past,

I am away from home to check more deterioration of my situation,.

I said once,  my home is yours

Home is for my children, I built it for them,

Yet they believe I am snatching those shelters.

This idea is fully false, I believe them and try to explain them. 

Nobody listens to my good words, I still love them all.

And they show arrogance towards me.

I do not tolerate dominance,

I do still take care of self,

You cannot put vehemence,

I will live at distance instead,

Beyond surveillance of your whims,

My bed is single and I am always single. 

MOTHER DURGA

An artist makes trust on

An idol of MotherDurga.

He makes sense in art work

For Her blessings to all on the earth. 

Note: Earlier poem,  MOTHER DURGA 

SHADES OF DEVI DURGA

Color has emboldened

The truth and depth of motherly love,

In presence of priests, artists give chakshudan

You will stare us with blessings. 

SHADES OF DEVI DURGA

First white paint

Looking transition

For arrival of MotherDurga

With beauty and grace, 

MOTHER DURGA

As artists are making the image

Of Devi Durga, I salute Mother Durga

In Her all forms and heavenly gestures

For peace and happiness on the earth. 

THE NATURE PREPARES TO GREET MOTHER DURGA

Before Her majestic arrival on the earth

The nature captures diversity in paddy

Cultivation, the blue sky filled with spongy

White clouds, and a little Kashful, those make

The way for preparation today before Devi Durga’s

Familial Mahalaya as mother this autumn. 

COVER PAGE OF MY FIFTH POETRY BOOK ON RAIN, PUBLICATION DATE STILL UNKNOWN

Note: Cover page has been changed and it is in the YouTube at the link
          http://youtu.be/alzLTtAyP94 

WITHOUT FOOD WE CANNOT DREAM

Those are cultivators

Sowing sprouted paddy seeds

In watery ploughed field,

They will work till 4 PM.

I am moving in a bus

That is speeding high,  

Villages, cultivate meadows,

Electrical lines pass along.

Busy work in rainy season

Functioning through rain waters,

Putting tender roots

Through watery muddy ground.

I am one to capture picture of it

Eyes to see the working men, women,

While all are in exploring time,

Without food we cannot dream. 

COLLEGE SQUIRE LAKE

Rain just stops falling,

I come out from a shade of a shop

In the street of College Squire,

Kolkata gets path of swaying of rain.

I stop at College Squire Lake,

A mist hovers in circling strangeness,

Lake water cool and vibrant with little waves,

Magical moments, behold decent calmness.

Rain holds easiness upon the earth,

It is the source of charming apparel

In sequence of philosophical tune,

I just take the path of remembering

Of those days when I came here

For taking a dig into career

Forty five years back, and to me now

This lake is like something born

Behind glossary of connective terms

Those are still musical in heart of

Roving life with significant zeal to survive,

In the heights of remembering the past. 

LONELY RED FLOWER

Our bus follows destination,

Speed and sound of engine

Make us awake in lonesome expense,

Among greens both sides of road.

Looking through window

I find one lonely flower

Red in color in all green bushes

Not touched with peers for love,

That we need in great happiness,

With time of loveliness, alongside,

Mind knows wishes of green and red,

Yet I cannot touch the red heart. 

TANKA

Summer morning clouds,

Little, yet covering the sun

On the river Hoogly,

Buildings in Kolkata stand

On the bank in grey out line.

I SAW TWO CULTIVATIONS

I saw two cultivations -

Betel leaf and paddy corn in one field,

Both are close to each one’s clossy way,

One big covered zone for betel leaf,

Beneath the trees, and near by is an open  

Meadow filled with rain-waters,

Down to the enclosure lies

Ploughed earth for paddy cultivation,  

Both need plenty of water

For their food, breathing, growing.

Next to each one’s field, one note and one song, 

Next to each one’s share, one quotes and expectation, 

Next to each one’s life, one water, raising ground sensation, 

Next to each one’s visibility, one green and one perpetuation. 

A cool decision comes over life to move fast,

It is mood, food, boost, energy,

Those are caring for life and livelihood,

 Making everything touching in motion,

And as I was moving on within their territory,

I think of their silent co-existence,

No war, no bargaining in their firmament.

THE SEA FEELS DISTANCE

Assembly of tourists is thin.

Cloudy sky in rainy season,

People lower gathering

For viewing of wave of the sea

In its vastness, peak of

Circular drawing of life,

With the wind, mirror of assimilation,

Above the surface and water pathway,

People are waiting for time

And for weather fresh to see the sun-rise

And enjoy splash in the sea.

Touches of slate color of cloudy sky draw

A terrible sketch in scale of creating distance. 

THROUGH THE WINDOW

Window panes open

Bed-room of my friend’s cottage.  

Outside unknown flower blooming

In neighbor’s garden.  

Mind flows with crystal sentiment,

That pleads for freeness from cage.

The grills of window seem iron barricade,

Into mission of soluble wisdom, hindered.

Flashing outside with flowers and

Green leaves of banana tree conglomerate.

Mind moves child-like,

Amid pristine bait of imperial sentiment.   

“I do not tear you.” Mind tells to the nature. 

THE (BETEL) NUT TREE IN PRISON

With mind tangled in so many issues

It turned up to thinking maximum drills

I think to cut my head to tear up cord

To remove warring zeal and paramount shrill,

Eyes go outside window to find freshness,

It is the ripe nuts in the tree caught in prison

Of brick culture and brick sketching around,

As if the nut tree convicted to concrete structure

And it has to obey laws of brick diagonals,

Yet it gets food and water, and stands bold to produce

Its fruits amid walls, tearing upon the modernity

That image pierces me to think about ethos

And I may have points to say, yet I have context

To imagine and build organs of growing relationship

All around my enclosures, wherein I may be fruitful to

Assure the world that mind is wise to bring peace.

TIDE AFTER TIDE

My mind burns

All the way in my turns

There comes one moment

And that time I come

To the ocean with pains,

And tide after tide make

A way towards shore

And break over and over

Yet there is a triumph

And cannot refrain

From growing more tides

Time and again,

This makes me think

Dream has no wrath

Over time, tide and mind. 

THE OCEAN’S PASSAGE

There is no rush

On the pavement at tourists’ spot,

Between waves and loneliness,

I sit alone on marble seats,

Beside Bay of Bengal beach,

With a pair of distinct beats,

One blue horizon,

The other concrete binding,

Through the nature,

Very close to sincerity and alacrity.

Sometimes people settle down

Within images in glass, light and color,

As wave settle down with breaks,

Sucked inside ocean’s gravity,

Each habit and each wave having duty,

To create inside and outside of events

In the world that we are inhabited

With the sense, having focus on pictures,

To kindle each side of smallest slideshow,

Like the ocean’s passage with time and wave.  

SCUM

No, all tides are not broken,

Tides do not add up momentum there,

Scum is around, muddy sea water moving

Along the sea-line with shore, time of recess,

I have gathered tasks; just sit at sea side,

Coming here needs money, more needs are

With tasks of asking me within me,

Can clouded mind appeal for rest?

Can it wake up for prayer upon wind?

How things come here and make scum,

And goes beyond blue horizon, it is a beat

Upon sea-surface, and it takes rest for moments.

Deep into waters, resides one sentiment

That is peace, ahead of truncated dreams,

Money and mercy are two sides of the dipped aura,

Still I am in the game of planning and plundering. 

GODDESS DURGA

Her coolness, after the art of killing demons,

is apt to sign the judge the world.

This feeling moves age after age,

picturing all wellness in Her looks

that prevails,

The world is Her region of conquers,

She looks at the glacier of life,

and cell formation,

At presence of Her Husband, Lord Shiva,

in thinking of life

and in removing darkness all over.

We are preparing to worship Her

in this October and attire Her

with respect and submission.

সমুদ্রতটে স্নান

দুরের জাহাজ দেখে ভেবেছি
সমুদ্র, কত ইতিহাস গড়েছ তুমি,
কত জীবন, কত লোকালয় ভেঙ্গেছ,
ভাঙ্গতে ভাঙ্গতে এক পদচিহ্ন থেকে
অন্য পদচিহ্ন তুলে এনে সমগ্র চেতনায়,
সমুদ্রতট বেয়ে এক সভ্যতা ।

এক উপকূল অশান্ত হলে,
অন্য উপকূলে স্নানের পরিবেশ,
সকল মানুষের জন্য মৃদু মন্দ জলস্রোত,
ঢেউ-এর মধ্যে শরীর ভিজিয়ে
মাথা উঁচু করে উঠে দাঁড়ানো
সবই ছুটছে ঘোড়ার লাগাম ধরে ।

জনপদ পেরিয়ে আমিও এসেছি
সমুদ্রতটের উন্মেষ ও প্রলোভন
কিছু কথা বলা ও শোনার জন্য
গতানুগতিক ভাঙ্গন ছাড়িয়ে একটু বাইরে -
সমুদ্র, তোমার কাছে এসেছি,
তোমার বিশাল পরিধি, ঢেউয়ের গর্জনে আমি স্নাত ।

INSPIRATION

Pleasantly my eyes catch the greener leaves

And more radiant petals at my first entry in the garden

That my father-in-law left behind his passing away,

Still the garden catches eyes through green grasses

And beautiful flowers in rainy season, it takes admitted

Praise from visitors who come here time to time.

Flowers bloom, petals get wet in raindrops for you,

Honey bees do come and enjoy honey in luster of

Defining preaches as heaven has created its beauty

Upon the earth, we see and move in realm of inspiration. 

জীবনছবি

সারাজীবন হাঁটতে গিয়ে
থেমে যাই রাতের আকাশের দিকে তাকিয়ে
শুভ্র বসনে চাঁদ যেন ঢেকে দিল আমার পথ |

গাঢ় অন্ধকার চারিদিক,
ঝলসানো মুখটাও দেখা যায় না,
অবসাদ যেন বলে দেয়,
কেন এই পথ হাঁটা ? আকাশটাও পর হয়ে গেছে |

যখন ভাবছি, কেন এই পথ হাঁটবো ?
চাঁদ যেন সমস্ত অন্ধকার বনাঞ্চল আড়াল করে
এক টুকরো শুভ্র প্রতিফলকে দিয়ে গেল জীবনছবি |

THE MOON IN RAINY SEASON

Five minutes ago I find the moon

The silver semicircle object illuminated

And I catch the scene with my camera,

And now I find moon is shadowed

In the rainy cloud, disturbs my mind

In that the journey the moon takes

Its silver thread is cut off by hurried cloud,

I am only observer, cannot direct whole

Universe to clean up the atmosphere for me only. 

RAIN DROPS

Tiny rain drops, tiny leaves hold the bliss

Wider preference, wider dwindle for the life,

To play inner beauty holding the key

For proud and rejoice of the rainy season.  

HAIKU

Storm pushes raindrops

Lines of reflections move

With advent of greens. 

CLOUDS OF INTERFERENCE

I am not denounced by other ways of life

I am always looking for decency of thinking

And loving zone of working people or

For those who are near and dear to me.

Yet clouds come in different ways,

I cannot cut them, who come violently,

Encroaching over my region of life,

People are prone to interfere all the time.

As I look into the clouds, I see beauty,

The sun behind the cloud, illuminating body

Of the cloud, near or afar, defining colors,

And the life is beautiful, if I think of these verses.

This world becomes more stringent to obey,

Being senior one, I do like to give advice to all,

Colors are there to follow in hearts and minds,

Yet there is difference in every move, significant.

RAIN IS COMING

There is construction in the dark cloud

Magic information old building shares,

Noting 64 seconds over traffic halts, for

Beginning of journey, city-streets perform.

Dark shade pointed to formation of water

In the rainy season, darkness hovering around,

Rain will come down with dancing bounce,

Life begins in a chain of communication

With hot weather of summer, an integrated

Affirmation with life’s sentiment for best guides,

We are on the way to make halts in raindrops’ verse,

For another passage that leads to our existence in the hearts.

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ANXIOUS JOURNEY

She is new in this journey

This time she has to return home

She falls in anxious waiting when

Her eyes has caught a moving bus

That she longs to get ride on

To go to the railway station,

That connects to her home station,

But the bus does not stop at stand,

And she becomes annoyed and

Ridiculed at this pattern of stumble

Over bus, that is playing on stance. 

Commuters stand cool over time

Their bus-routs are known and when

The scheduled bus comes

They get on board, as destined to,

And reach home sooner or later.

She sees buses running with haste

Lifting passengers in rush,

Grasping moments,

Light and shadow point towards time,

Somehow to reach home,

All time in hurry.

SINGING OF RAIN

First rain drifted over the land of cultivation,

This time it lays an emphatic shower for

A green blanket stretched to horizon,

Water makes lotus seeds sprout, and fills all

Nearby ditches with water, to the brim,

Lotus stem holds leaf floating,

Making them get bloomed on water-island.

Farmers start tilting mud on paddy field,

As if light reflected on water drops in cloud

To form green light passing through

Prism of life that carries singing of life,

What journey is is for life’s turn,

Meaning to go on to possess long wing,

Ahead of our dreams, to live with food grains. 

WALKING ALONE

No, she does not want to walk with me

As her attempts finds no categorical stand for her in me.

At her every turn, there is construction, she finds

No model persona in me, at least partly to follow. 

She wants to walk alone, ignoring my presence,

Her mind blooms to find the nature of modernization, walking

Along the road that is busy, dream is still there where

We are destined to live in never-ending-township tossing. 

NOTES FROM WHITE CLOUD

Cloud, which I want to shift

Layer by layer

To our sky at behest of root

Of our mind

To travel along blue horizon,

With my hands

To live as if it is our shelter

Beyond houses below

As if white mountain there

Takes us above the sky

Stars are nearer

Dreams are close to reality

Getting close to

Sunrays, full dominion

Celestial events drawn close

Into our touch for sure,

Myths do not lure anymore.  

CLOUD AND KRISHNACHURA

Krishnachura no longer in the firmament

At summer’s ending with cloud’s hovering,

Yet little bunches of red asylum still prevails,

Like taking a little flight at the grace of longing,

Let summer welcome rainy season’s vow.

Mind is open to greet rain, and rain waits to wet

Roots of tree that may give blooming more red

In space of the blue and the red in connoisseurs

Of life’s travel through the nature - lighting and breathing,

That we like to have with silver and diamond rewarding.

This music in a string, visual presence shows grand

As lore of mother earth we hear beside our stand

The pleasant melody filling our existence within,

A cluster of cloud splendor of white screening

With redness in mind to greet new season’s dreaming. 

WONDERFUL CLOUD

These clouds come out from the water of the earth,

They have thoroughfare, as programmed in air-path,

Tossed like tottered walks, yet firm with whitewash,

Making jewel of hovering water, quenching our thirst.

The blue has got the heart to hold them at far,

There they do move in freedom of mind we do search,

Here we upon the earth see their moment of purge

Forming water bubbles, to pour in ponds, tulip and 

Rivers and bodies of the earth, we see through window,

Falling of rain, daisies of life, that we soak in mind,

In dream of life, new life, dwell with founding terms,

Those we build in our source of diamond murmurs. 

THIS CLOUD

This cloud reminds me

When I was in my childhood,

Mother said I was young

To know the world,

Sometimes it is playful

Sometimes it is hurtful

Sometimes it is soothing,

Sometimes it is benign,

But many times it is bliss.

Cloud makes us turn to look

At the life’s vision,

Leading to a standard life,

That is amused with time,

For that reason we do well

And we feel tenderness of blessing

When cloud bursts into rain,

And the world rejoice

With all that it holds on surface.

CLOUD

You are more volatile than summer persists

And so is our breathing, then in heavy rain,

Wet blanket covers sea of warm house-boxes,

Green turns greener, clouds pull coolness,

I am enjoying view of sublime, hovering clouds. 

POETRY ALBUM BRACING THE SPINE

Cover page of my 4th self-published poetry book

After returning from hospital

She once said

“I cannot approach for death,

I have just to return to my life.”

Then she goes for taking rest

She goes with start to cry

That she has lost such vigor

All her recognition violated.

All her thirty two years of marriage

All her generation thinking

All her work for home and husband

Lying on cinder of unwanted invaders.

“I do not want to flee,

And tell all invaders that

Sanctity of my bedroom not to be violated

System of my kitchen room not to be rubbished.”

All her wishes are dismissed

In the firmament of generation wilderness

Liking of elderly generation’s work still moribund

Yet she lives with pains.

Poet Kapardeli Eftichia has translated the poem POETRY ALBUM BRACING THE SPINE in Greek 

TANKA

April clouds, small, white,

These come as Kalbaisakhi storm.

From life’s journey,

She learns small to be cared of,

Like kidney stone, endless owe.

THE CRESCENT MOON

At the sun-set time,

My mind imparts with woes of life,

That begins with surgery

For removing stone

From kidney of my wife,

And after one month

Another surgery to be done

For extracting stone from her gallbladder,

And she bears pain

I grieve to her suffering.

My mind changes time to time,

As if some stones are solid with sadness,

I look at the evening sky,

The crescent moon glancing at me violently,

While it is cool with its black and white smiling,

Whispers of love cannot hold humors,

And we are toys of heavenly purposes.

Many times I tried to explain the situation,

Every time I feel loneliness, with pains for her.

She sits in a chair; I am the man on the doorway,

I cannot make her life comfortable,

Others are sitting at the other side of glass,

Thirty two years of married life move to a risk,

The crescent moon is changeable to a full moon,

We are not changeable like the moon,

Colors of the twilight sky may change to crimson red,

We are not hopeful for changes, again we are hopeful. 

TANKA

Little clouds hover in

Morning sunlight in the sky,

April on the trip,

On health purpose, wide journey

Begins with fruit, food and water.

THE NEGLECT

She is in the hospital bed

She drinks green-coconut-water

Stones just removed from her kidney.

The surgeon enquired

Whether she took plenty of water,

And moderate food.

She was alone at home

With her grandson,

When parents of little one

Are at their working zone,

She finds no time

To take care of her body and mind.

She forgets to sing, she forgets to look,

She forgets to mingle, she forgets to

Emotionally respond to nutrition.

She falls to nature’s retaliation

She is at her faults,

Stones formed in kidney and in gallbladder.

And the worst has been done

She is at loss of strength,

Very organic formation.

Surgery is done; caught in loneliness,

Her random speed has been broken,

Harvesting moon has no promises in her eyes. 

TANKA

On a spring morning,

Illness brings tiredness still

After surgery

To extricate kidney-stone,

Confidence lets her sit upon. 

NEW POEM

WINTER MORNING

In a winter morning sun-rays begin its realm

In the world that begins to wake up workforce.  

Road is busy with crowded frequencies,

People move with articles purchased,

Either on bi-cycles or on hand-pulled rickshaws,

In spirit, enthusiasm, welcoming day’s beginning,

As monumental surprises warmth surrounding,

For shaking off lazy dreams,

And for utilizing day’s time and assigning.

Looking at scene, I feel cooling breeze

Making another kind of sizzles

A prominent part of an anthology

That presents full and colored events

Those are to locate or relocate one’s presence,

Benefits and priorities

According to one’s demand, and perception.

In the wonder of sunlight people enjoy working delight.
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Making of a new poem: Destiny,
http://asimkumarpaul.wordpress.com/2013/09/22/destiny/

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ORIGINAL POEM

http://asimkumarpaul.blogspot.in/2013/06/senior-citizen-2.html

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ORIGINAL POEM 

http://asimkumarpaul.blogspot.in/2013/09/broken-doors_1977.html

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